20

I'm 20 now, since sunday :O. My birthday was pretty random, went to cafeteria on St. Laurent to eat dinner, then went to Bsides, Asides, and Med. I still had fun though and I'm thankful for all the people that showed up/stopped by, I really appreciate it. The weekend of my birthday is always the busiest so I'm happy that at least some people can fit me into their busy schedules hehe :)
Anyway photo of the night had to be from cafeteria when I was trying to take a photo of T&CC but they were being lame and covering their faces so I happened to turn the camera down and snapped a photo of myself. Was a pretty cool shot. I love accidental photos :)


I also finally went to Bsides even if it wasn't for long and I got to have the drinks that they serve in those tomatoe jars with handles!!! Thanks to E for buying me the drinks :)

Sunny Day

So last night I couldn't sleep, this guy from work was texting me non stop till about 3 a.m. Then I stayed online talking to my neighbor, U, till 4:30 a.m. I then proceeded to log off even though I was wide awake. I tossed and turned for a while then went to the bathroom and looked out the window to find out how blue the sky was. It was so nice and peaceful, so when I got back to my room I fumbled in the dark, found my camera and decided to take a couple of photos. I recommend not searching for a camera in the dark without glasses..it is quite difficult. Anyway afterward I went back to bed and it must have been around 5 a.m. at this point because I heard my father getting up to go shower for work. Ever since I was little I find the sound of the shower soothing, I must have fallen alseep right after hearing that because it's the last thing I remember.
My friend DP thinks I have insomnia....I'm actually not sure whether or not I do.
Anyway here are the photos:

Chanel No.5

So my last blog was all depressing and whatnot. I think it's good to let out some of those feelings once in a while. Don't get me wrong I'm not always like that lol. This blog post is one of ulta happiness and discovery!!!

Audrey Tautou the actress from one of my all time favorite movies, Amelie, is the new face of Chanel No. 5. Goodbye Nicole Kidman and hello Audrey Tautou. She's simply beauitful and I have the link to the short film here. I fell in love the moment I watched it.




Also I was browsing the internet just before and found that she will be staring in Coco Avant Chanel a new movie( well fairly new it says it came out April 22 2009 in select theaters) I don't know when it will be playing in Canada. But when I find out I'm definately watching :) Here's the trailer as well:

Heart

I never really understood why people would use the term heartbroken/heartache since your heart never actually breaks/aches, I always found it to be such an overdramatic word. Well call me a hypocrite but I guess I finally understand what people really mean when they say they're heartbroken. I think it's a feeling that you can only fully understand once it's happened to you.
It's that feeling you get in your chest when you feel as though every heartbeat is beating too fast, when every breath that escapes you takes so much effort. When you begin to cry and no matter how much you try and stop it that lump in your throat seems to keep growing and every breath becomes a struggle. The tears just keep coming and even once you feel as though there are no more tears left in you, a new stream beings to appear. It's that feeling that your ribcage is going to collapse and your throat explode. It's the burning feeling that needs to escape your body but can't seem to and just continues burning. Your heart literally begins to ache and your head to throb and no matter what you do you can't escape the pain.
The first appearance of this is always the strongest and the worst but somehow one manages to get through it and then it's this continuous feeling that enters your body night after night and no matter how much you try to postpone it or occupy your mind it creeps up on you and begins like clockwork.
Sure, eventually it begins to diminish but right when you think you've finally overcome it and have moved on it begins again when you least expect it, stronger than the last time and with no mercy.
Who knows maybe I'm actually a hidden drama queen.... true the heart is in the healing process since it's not as frequent but I guess time moves too slow for my liking. I just thought of the song Better In Time from Leona Lewis the part when she sings the chorus "thought I couldn't live without you, it's gonna hurt when it heals too, it'll all get better with time, even though I really love you, I'm gonna smile cuz I deserve too, it'll all get better with time."

photo of the day: (grassy lawn and cousin's strands of hair)

Wonder

wow I haven't posted in sooo long. So much has happened to start writing about it now so I'll just skip that lol.

My cousin's birthday was last week on the 8th to be exact! 20 years old heh, she's exactly 2 weeks and two days older than me :) We had a good time at alkemista or wtv it's called, she actually got drunk it was pretty hilarious to see. My cousin that does not drink getting drunk...as long as it's not a habit I guess bday night can be her exception heh. Anyway I love my cousin to death and I know she had a good time with all her friends. We took some photos of the night but they were all pretty hidious..so i'm only posting one...which isn't really of anything but my hand haha!!